Wednesday, 5 June 2013

Heart's A Mess Chapter Nineteen

"Would you like to present this one Dr. Gupta?" Danes asked, a slight smile playing on his lips.

Everyone around the room tried to hide their smiles, as they snuck glances at one another. The few medical student and interns accompanying Matt, Khushi, Oliver and Jahnvi on this ward round were none the wiser of what was about to transpire. Grabbing the chart from Danes, Khushi grit her teeth and smiled forcefully....

"With pleasure."

Arnav leaned back into the pillows, his hands folded behind his head, and grinned wolfishly.

This was going to be fun.

Khushi narrowed her eyes at the beautiful specimen of a man in front of her. Wearing a navy blue polo shirt, blue jeans and a breathtaking smile he was making it difficult for her to stay mad at him. Still, she wouldn't stop trying.

Turning to the medical students in the group, she directed her monologue.

"Patient Name: Asshole. Age: 5 years. Medical History: Delusions and Mental Instability. Presenting Complaint: Small penis."

Arnav had been grinning till she had made mention of his prized asset. It was impressive at the speed she had managed to wipe the smile off his face. At this point Jahnvi and Matt had turned to face the other way, holding on to each other, chests shaking with silent laughter. The students and intern in the room looked between and Arnav bewildered.

Danes bit back his own smile, eyes crinkling with mirth. "Had your fun?"

"Not really."

"Do you think you could present properly for the benefit of these eager young minds Dr. Gupta?"

Khushi sighed. Without even having to refer to his patient chart she began again. "Arnav Singh Raizada, 31 year old male admitted last night for a series of diagnostic tests to determine eligibility for heart transplant. Medical history includes repeated incidents of undiagnosed Rheumatic Fever that subsequently developed into Rheumatic Heart Disease compromising the Mitral Valve. Regurgitation is suspected to have now progressed to its decompensated phase ruling out possibility of repairing the valve. Results of recent ECHO's suggest the beginning of heart failure. He is also a Type 1 Diabetic."

The end of the monologue was delivered as a soft whisper, her eyes swimming with pain. Whatever humour had previously infused the air was gone. The mood turned sombre as everyone turned to look at the couple who only had eyes for one another. Arnav gently lifted his hand reaching out for hers. Rubbing his thumb across her palm, he squeezed tight trying to soothe her.

Swallowing hard, Khushi tried to blink away her tears. Oliver cleared his throat and turned to one of the medical students. "Can you tell me the kind of tests we would be running?"

Arya, in her fourth year of medical school, felt a little nervous but gave it a go. "A standard blood panel, urine testing, ECG, Chest X-ray, ECHO, stress tests, pulmonary function tests...." here her list petered off.

"Matt can you add on to Ms. Taheem's list?" Dr. Danes requested.

"We also need to perform a heart catheterisation, carotid dopplers, radionuclide angiography and an abdominal ultrasound."

"Since our approach is muti-disciplinary who else are we likely to involve Jed?" Oliver gave the intern a chance to use his knowledge.

"He'll need to have a psychiatric and social evaluation, meetings with an anaesthesiologist and endocrinologist. Since his currently appointed cardiologist is his sister we will have to find a more appropriate cardiologist as well."

The questions continued thus for sometime till the whole transplant team was fully informed of the case.
In this whole time Khushi kept holding on to Arnav's hand, her eyes fixed on the white lino of the floor, willing herself not to cry. This was only the beginning. She would have to be strong for him. Crying wasn't going to help anyone. Taking a deep breath she looked up at him and smiled weakly, her eyes still a touch watery. Arnav winked in return, making her heart soar and this time when she smiled it was more genuine.

"Any questions Arnav?" Oliver disturbed them.

"No. I'm all good."

"All right then. I guess we'll leave you to it. Jahnvi here is going to start the ball rolling and take some basic observations and talk to you in a bit more detail about whats going to happen today. I'll leave you in her capable hands."

The group made their way out of the room, shoulders jostling up against each other as they exited through the door. Khushi turned to leave and it was only then that Arnav noticed she was walking a touch gingerly. Not one to take anything lying down, he decided to give back some of the treatment he had been receiving since morning.

"Actually... I do have one question." Arnav called out.

The hoard of doctor's stopped in the doorway. "Yes?" Oliver prodded.

"I just wanted to ask if Dr. Gupta was alright. She seems to be walking a bit strangely."

Having said what he needed, he lay back and grinned, watching as Khushi's eye's widened in horror. It was only natural after last night that she be a touch sore. But for him to bring it up like this was just plain evil.

"Are you alright Khushi? Have you pulled a muscle or something?" Oliver asked concerned. Arnav chortled.

"'m fine."she mumbled.

A pink blush crept up her cheeks at the memories running through her mind. Matt who had caught on, indicated with gestures to Jahnvi, who giggled at the embarrassed and shy Khushi. Huffing, Khushi glared at Arnav and almost ran out the room, leaving everyone utterly confused.


Later that afternoon, Khushi managed to finish up a valve repair with Matt and went to the nurses station to do some post-operative follow up. An interesting situation awaited her. Jahnvi stormed up to her with a patient robe in hand. Shoving it into Khushi's chest she growled. "That's it! I give up! He's bloody impossible."

Khushi frowned. "What? Who are you...."

"Your damn boyfriend! That's who I am talking about. He is a nightmare."

Khushi tried not to laugh. "What's he done?"

"Uh it proably better to ask me what he hasn't done."

"Alright. What hasn't...."

"Oh god that statement was rhetorical woman!"

This time Khushi did laugh as she steered Jahnvi to sit on a chair. Pouring her a glass of water she instructed her to drink.

"Feeling better?" Jahnvi let out a big breath, still visibly annoyed. "Now tell me calmly what's got you so worked up."

"First of all he doesn't take his medications. I gave him the medications at noon telling him they needed to be taken. I walk in five minutes ago and they're still sitting there. Then he has the nerve to sheepishly grin and say he forgot because he was too busy working. On top of it he looks so damn adorable its hard to tell him off. Oh....oh....then I spend the entire day fending off female medical students who just have to get a medical history from him."

Khushi frowned at this piece of information, which made Jahnvi smile.

"It's actually hilarious. He looks so uncomfortable when they obviously flirt with him. He keeps repeating he has a girlfriend not that it stops any of them. Damn cute in my opinion."

Khushi shook her head. "Ok how has this driven you to breaking point though?

Immediately she scowled as if reminded of her terrible day. "He argues about everything! There is no discussion that doesn't involve me having to cajole him. Taking blood from him took 2 hours this morning because he's afraid of needles! My four year old patients are better than him. Not to mention he won't put away his laptop. Apparently his ECHO test can wait till he's finished talking to some investor in Japan or some company in Spain. And now he won't wear this damn robe! I have other patients you know! I'm not his mother."

Khushi tried not to smile, listening to her friend complain about the child man she was is in love with. Giving her shoulder a squeeze....

"Leave it to me J. I'll sort him out."

"Puh-lease. Five of us have tried to get him into this robe."

"It's true." Meg agreed.

"I can't wait till Shagun's on shift she'll have him sorted in no time. He's scared of her." Jahnvi grumbled.

Khushi ignored them and headed to his room, ugly hospital gown in hand. Arnav was sitting on the desk in the corner of the room, typing away furiously answering e-mails. Spotting her out of the corner of his eye he stated...

"Gupta don't even think about asking me to wear that thing. I refuse."

"I wasn't planning on asking Raizada."

He stopped typing and turned to face her. "Oh really?"

Propping herself up on the bed, she nodded, a mischievous expression on her face. "I was planning on ordering you."

Standing, he began to walk toward her with deliberate steps. "That"

"Whatever gets you to wear it..." Her breath caught in her throat, as he placed both arms on the bed, either side of her waist, effectively trapping her.

Blowing on the loose wisp of her hair, he huskily whispered. "Whatever it takes? Are you sure about that doctor?"

Khushi quickly stuffed the gown in his face, trying to put some distance between them. Arnav rolled his eyes and made his way back to the desk.

"I'm not wearing it and that's that."

"This isn't a movie set. No one cares what you look like. This is a hospital. You're driving the nursing staff mad."

"I know that!" he raised his voice. It was strange to hear, since she had very rarely seen him angry.

"Then what's the problem?"

"You! You're my problem!" He slammed his hand on the desk, and turned away from her, looking out at the city.

The room fell silent, as Khushi looked at his back wondering what she could have done wrong. Arnav turned around, took one look at her crestfallen face and felt like a jerk. Sighing, he walked toward her and held her hands.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean...."

Khushi looked up at him, still sitting on the bed. "What's wrong Arnav?"

With his palm, he placed it on her cheek and stared down at her, drinking in every little detail of her. She looked exhausted. Yet her skin still glowed, beautifully soft. A stray wisp escaped her messy bun, not quite long enough to be tucked behind her ear. Leaning down, he pulled on her bottom lip, rolling it between his teeth. He kissed her slowly, trying to express the depth of his love. But before she could even begin to respond he moved away and tried to catch his breath.

"I'm just frustrated."


Arnav ran his hands through his hair, trying to articulate his emotion. "We shared something beautiful yesterday. Yet here I am. Instead of being able to love and cherish you like I should, you're stuck taking care of me.  It's humiliating enough that you're with someone who has the body of an 80 year old but now you want me to wear this damn dress?"

Khushi didn't know whether to laugh or cry. For a man like Arnav, the idea of appearing vulnerable and helpless was emasculating. And in front of the woman he loved even more so. He was afraid that she would think of his as less of man. As less of a lover.

Hugging herself into him, she spoke into his chest. "Dress or no dress, you still make my knees go weak."

Arnav wrapped his arm around her and rest his head atop hers. Sighing, he asked to no one in particular...

"Why does it have to be so hard?"

Khushi looked up at him. "I keep asking myself the same thing." 


Anjali and Aman rushed from the elevators toward the nurses station.

"Raizada..." she barked out, slightly out of breath.

"Room 1202." The nurse pointed her in the direction of his room.

A call earlier in the morning from a hospital employee, was the first news Anjali Mathur had received about her brother's whereabouts in the last three weeks. Relief, panic and anger had been her intrinsic reaction to the information. However her highly efficient mind had realised that there was no time for such things. And so, hopping on the first available flight out of New York, she had been running non-stop to get to her baby brother. It was now nine pm and technically past visiting hours; protocol could go to hell for all she cared.

Sliding the door to the room open, the sight that greeted her warmed her heart. Arnav and Khushi were both fast asleep. The latter, in a recliner chair next to the bed, a magazine about to fall off her lap. Closing her eyes, she breathed a sigh of relief. He was alright. Her baby was alright. For the first time that day, Anjali held on to her husband and allowed herself to cry.


Khushi stirred in her sleep. The pain in her neck was bothering her. Cracking one eye open, she check on Arnav who was still fast asleep. She smiled. He had finally worn the stupid gown. Letting her eyes drift shut again, she remembered the wolf whistling the staff had erupted into when the back of his gown had drifted open, giving them an eyeful of his rather delicious behind. 

"I knew his arse was sexy!" Meg called out.

"That arse is mine! Go find one of your own to ogle Meg!" Khushi had growled protectively, to which Arnav had simply laughed. Later on though, when he had gotten up to grab some file or the other, she had got another eyeful and it was becoming increasingly apparent why the nursing staff was fixated about her boyfriends behind. She couldn't blame them really. It was perfectly round, with the dimples at the top. Her cheeks began to burn at the direction of her musings. 

The sound of a scraping chair, disturbed her thoughts. The lighting in the room was dim but she still had to squint to adjust to the light. Sitting across the room was Anjali, flipping through a magazine, sipping on a hot beverage. A table lamp to the side of her, threw a faint light across her face, highlighting her already stunning features. At that very moment she looked up, her eyes meeting her own. Immediately Khushi stiffened and began to get up.

"Khushi ...don't go. Not on my account. Aman's just gone to get some food, he'll be back in a moment." Anjali whispered, wary of her sleeping brother.

She ignored her and got up anyway. "The last time we met, my behaviour was unsavoury. But please try and understand."

Khushi gritted her teeth and forced herself to stay quiet for Arnav's sake. This was not the time or place. On her way out the door, Anjali held onto her wrist.

"Let. Me. Go." Khushi hissed quietly, making her anger apparent. As the grip on her arm slackened she heard a broken sob...

"He's my baby. Try and understand." she pleaded.  "He's my baby."

Khushi angled her head slightly. Anjali was looking toward Arnav with such maternal affection that it was hard for her to hate the woman. It had always been her problem. Khushi's heart was too big and too generous for her own good. Huffing in frustration she handed her the tissue box and took the seat next to her.

"You have five minutes and then I'm leaving."

Anjali wiped her tears, still staring ahead at Arnav.

"Arnav was so young when mumma and papa left us. Hardly five years old. Mumma had been sick for a long time. I can't remember with what but it must have been some kind of cancer.  Papa spent every last penny on her treatment. He loved her with everything he had and was with her every step of the way. As a result the family business suffered. Soon Nani had to sell her ancestral land to pay for the all the new and expensive research trials he was putting her into. When she finally died he was beside himself with grief. I didn't think it was possible to die from a broken heart."

Anjali paused for a moment, lost in her own thoughts. Khushi was breaking apart inside. These people had seen their own version of hell, no different from her own. Perhaps even worse.

"After papa died, our chacha kicked us out. Nani had no money to speak off and we ended up living in the slums. The pension provided enough money for our food and basic needs so Nani would do basic seamstress jobs to earn a little extra income on the side. It killed us to see her work so hard.  Both Chote and I worked day and night, studying as hard as we could. Chote would get sick often though. He would have high temperatures and aching bones but we just couldn't afford the healthcare. His diabetes mediation was expensive enough, so we had to let him ride it out. I guess that was what made me want to be a doctor. The long and short of it all is that we worked hard and made better lives for ourselves. But in all these years, I was the one who would stay up at night applying cold compresses, who would hear his screams and moans, who watched him graduate, who helped him tie his laces, who wouldn't eaten till he had. I may have Neha now but Chote will always be my first child."

Anjali turned to hold Khushi's hand. "He is my baby and always will be. Arnav always comes first. Something Aman took sometime to get used to. I am sorry that I didn't tell you. I am sorry I lied to you. I am sorry I blamed you. But I would do it all again. For him. Because of him."

Khushi looked between Arnav and Anjali. "I should hate you for what you did. But I understand. I don't want to but I do."

Anjali smiled and leaned forward for a hug. Khushi backed away. "It doesn't mean that I have forgiven you. I will in time. But for now I need some space."

Both women sat in silence, content with their own thoughts. Anjali looked toward Khushi...

"He'll be ok won't he?" Her voice held so much fear that Khushi felt her heart break all over again. How could she not understand this woman's actions. Would she have not done the same for her own child?

Khushi held onto Anjali's hand, giving it a gentle squeeze. "He'll be ok."


Extra long update for extra special readers who give me so much love. Four more updates left in this story.


  1. wow... amazing update..
    finally he is in for the tests... loved the way the teasings went on... and poor khushi she must be so embarassed when arnav mentioned abt her walk....
    cute tht everyone gal thr is flirting with him and J complaining to khushi.
    it must beso hard for a strong man like arnav to wear tht gown and look weak infront of his girlfren.
    loved the way u added humor in between all the sadness.
    Good tht khushi didnt forgive Anji immediately,,, hope she doesnt create any more bollywood scene:-))
    overall BEAUTIFUL update

  2. Awesome chapter
    The conversation between anjali and khushi was very emotional Loved it
    Its nice to see a jealous side of khushi

  3. loved the nok jok in the beginning and arnav is so naughty and the other interns checking out arnav wicked and him wearing a gown him thinking it would make him look weak in front of her loved how he teased her about her walk and anjali and khushi talking glad khushi did not forgive her she needs to stop her drama loved the update beautifully done amazing thanks for the pm

  4. Very nice update. thank you.

  5. ohhh!!! my tears can't stop no matter how much i try while reading this story. i don't have words to tell you how much i love this story. you are a amazing writer plz i beg you to make it a happy ending. their teasing and love is so amazing and mind blowing. i always felt that every thing is happening in front of my eyes.. girls still go GAGA on arnav :p khushi possessiveness is cute. anjali love for arnav is so amazing and beautiful. thanks for update love every bit of it. update next part soon just can't wait to read next part :p and at the end YOU ARE AWESOME AND FABULOUS WRITER!!

  6. Thank you, thank you thank you :) It really is a humongous chapter and you added part B to the last one too. I loved ALL of it. Fabulous work :)
    I'd read that you've planned an end to this story which may not sit well with all of us. I request you to stick to your original storyline, as a reader I think, I can't cross the writer's genius.

  7. Your hell bent on making my cry are you S??

    But truly speaking wonderful man and those lines and those cheekiness are much needed to ease out the tension in between!!

    So the whole hospital is for them I'm glad!

    And anjali is right at her place and so is khushi no conpromises there!

    He'll be okay! Hmm


  8. I'm so glad you're back, I just read both the chapters. I have missed your updates. This story, every word holds so much meaning, its deeper than other stories, the emotions are raw, and to some extent I can very well relate to them. Yeh the happy times are back, but these are those moments which hold just that much more happiness, its not like before, its all so different. This just explains how in every situation, happiness finds a possibility.

    It's so different, his happiness at being able to be with her, her happiness to be able to see him alive, his happiness at her support and love, her happiness at his existence and at having him with her for just that much longer... It breaks my heart, yet it mends it, it makes me cry, yet it brings a smile to my face.

    You're a magician sasak, you make people happy, with your qords, your stories, your messages, with every emotion you project through your chrqctwrs, with every feeling you infuse in the characters, you weave magivc and i love you for that. thank you.

    Lots of love,

  9. Finally he is at the hospital but still working

    I love their banter at the hospital, so cute

    Ah so all the females staff has gone gaga of Arnav

  10. You actually made me cry with Anjali's stories. I feel bad for them. I hope that this story has a happy ending!
    P. S. Having the medical students flirt with Arnav and having Khushi get jealous was a really cute touch. If I was in their place I would be doing the same thing!

  11. That was a wonderfull chapter. .. quite lite actually...loved their was cute...khushi and anjali also have made their peace....felt so happy reading it... there was no heavy hearts this time...but I guess u r giving us the calm before d storm... arent u?????
    IF aarrsshhii

  12. Will it wrong of me to say that this was Hilarious? It was fun to read this chapter until Anjali came. Poor Arnav, so he have always been sick? Wonderful update and please no more tears. And dont you dare to go and thinking about killing Arnav!

  13. Great update Sasak
    Had me in tears (the 2nd part)
    Lol Khushi's intro of arnav
    Hehe all the girls ogling at arnav's backside
    Arnav truly is Anjali's first baby

  14. Super update
    they are just made for each other
    but i feel so sad for Arnav and Anjali........even after all the things they have seen in their childhood.......still suffering so much
    very true.......Arnav will always remain Anjalis baby


  15. cupcake1234(IF)5 June 2013 at 14:04

    First of all thanks a lot for writing such a long chapter!

    I think it was a well balanced chapter with the right touch of humour and much needed realism in it.I don't know how you make us laugh one minute and cry the next , but you are doing such a good job at it!

    Haha it was funny how Arnav got back at Kushi for her remark against his 'prized asset'! ;)

    It's like they are both putting on a brave face for each other's sake but deep inside knows how serious the situation is.

    I'm glad there was an Anjali - Kushi encounter at the end.I was waiting for an explanation and an apology from Anjali's side for her outburst...!

    This story you've penned down is beautiful and addictive!Can't believe it's ending soon!


  16. superb update. totally loved it

  17. nice sweet chapter, a complete change of emotions,
    IF: random94

  18. Don't you thonk you made us cry enough, Sasak. I really hope you won't make us cry ny more.

    Loved the humour in the first part of the update. The situation was really funny.
    I do understand Anjali better now. It was normal for her to be upset as she loves Arnav like a mother.
    Just waiting for the next update.

  19. i'm still pissed at anjali too. and i am going to need some time too to get over it!

  20. Loved it...
    loved the humor at the beginning of the chapter
    I hope khushi forgives anjali is time because coming from her perspective she was almost right to lash out... i mean don't we all.. and then of course regret it later.
    it is also lovely for arnav to come to khushi before even thinking about anjali..after all as he says she is the most important person in his life

  21. haha.....arnav's back...;)...;p....perfectly round....and has dimple too!!!!....hahahaaaa...
    what a description!!!.....loved the way everybody enjoy arnav's back side view!!....:p...
    as usual.....loved it.....
    to be love with your writing!!!....
    god bless u....:)

  22. Don't know what to say except - I loved this update!

  23. good to see u back
    hope everything is ok at ur end now
    thx for this extra long update dear
    the update was fantastic - hilarious, emotional, romantic, everything was there in it
    loved it sasak
    luv ur writing
    IF Arjuhisis

  24. I don't know whether to laugh or cry... Their cute moments make me smile like there is no end while those sad moments and Anjali's story made me cry like hell... This is beautiful and painful at the same time..:')

    Reading about his sexy arse made my innocent mind imagine bizarre things..:D This 5 yr old man was just so so sooo adorable that I wanted to pull his cheeks.

    I really really really loved it..<3 <3

    Do update soon...:)


    P.S- I hope you are okay now.

  25. The last three updates have been SO can't be fully happy for them because you know there's so much sadness surrounding them, but all is not lost...they now have each other, and there's always a chance for a heart coming available for seems surreal that their love story might be cut short so soon!!

    Absolutely loved the chapters...thank you!

  26. a beautiful update....they share something that's beyond words everthing will be OK when they are together....loved it :)

  27. loved the hospital scene. awww they are oogling on his behind. who wouldnt. this is such an emotionally charged piece that such outlets are required

  28. Wow amazing.

    Arnav is so damn cute n gupta is adorable.

    Awesome update.

    Loved it to the core.

    Haha the begining part was hilarious.

    Very well written.

    (hina69 from IF)

  29. Amazing dear .. his past was really painful .. sure his sickness in past the rezone of wut his suffering now ..will be waiting for next sure khushi gone do EVERYTHING to save him

  30. Finally am able to comment on the Blog ...

    Just have no words for this story ...
    it is so touching and heartbreaking ...
    Loved the bit of humour that you have included ...

    Thanks Sasak ... you write beautifully ...

  31. Amazing update Sasak!!!!!!Loved every word of it..
    You really have a gift with words girl..
    This was hilarious.."Patient Name: Asshole. Age: 5 years. Medical History: Delusions and Mental Instability. Presenting Complaint: Small penis."
    Kushi and Anjali's convo was painful..

    "He's my baby"..heart wrenching..

    Take care are always in our prayers.

  32. Hi Sasak! And the queue the waterworks! I don't even know what makes me cry anymore...Whether its ArHi or Khushi and Anjali..I dunno...
    Anyways, I just wanted to say that I love you and I hope you find peace in whatever you do! I hope you get better soon. Sending loads of love from Bangalore!

  33. How can a nurses and female internees not fall on ASR charms man and when he actually behaves like 5 years child
    lovely chapter but too much heartache
    why this happening with them
    he wants to love and kiss her but his body tried to do that
    anjali...i always like her how he treats her baby brother
    they faced tough life and now when he has everything he faced that

    i wish you find your peace soon
    just enjoy small moments of life and find happiness its only comes that way
    love ypu take care

    LiveCrazily from IF

  34. So touched by Anjali-Khushi conversation. And even though there is a fun in every step the underlying pain is very evident! I loved the way Arnav got back to Khushi for the teasing!

  35. just Awesome..........loved it,,,,hey Anjali chilfd name is Neha,,,, mine too.....yepiii

    Arnav to have disturbed childhood,,,,,, so emotional....and quite funny too

    loved the update


  36. Finally, Arnav's agreed to come in for the tests. But that's just the first step, isn't it? The part where she recites his history is heart-rending, especially the ECHO results suggesting the "beginning of heart failure". Khushi feels so helpless, despite all her knowledge and her skills as a heart surgeon.
    Again, Anjali and Arnav's childhood has been just as traumatic as Khushi's. Yet despite this all three have grown into strong, focused professionals. Says a lot about their individual personalities.
    Khushi and Anjali's conversation was straight, to the point. Thank you for not making Khushi magically forgive and forget Anjali's duplicity, if one can call it that. From Anjali's point of view, if Arnav is her first child, then what she did is understandable. Not necessarily correct, but understandable.
    Hope you're feeling better as time goes by, Sasak...both in body and spirit.

  37. just loved it!
    arnav has had a difficult childhood!
    the update was amazing
    waiting for the next update!

    AnupamaJY ( IF )

  38. When I read your work I think that life is harsh...with ups and downs...
    What Arnav and Khushi going threw is heartbreaking...they should date...go to movies..instead they are in a hospital.
    The conversation of the two women was faboulos..
    Wonderful update...but it left sorrow in my heart.

  39. I have loved the story so much.. i don't when was the last time i cried reading a fiction..
    your story is unique. writing is amazing .. i have become your fan in 2 days (i started reading yesterday)..
    I wish i had read it earlier.. its the best story on ARSHI..

    When is the next chapter coming?

  40. Hey :)

    OMDays! As as soon as I read the part where it says "Presenting Complaint: Small penis" ... I laughed sooo much! AMAZING!

    Trust Arnav to get Khushi back ... Ahhh sweeet love ;)

    As for Arnav constantly telling the female medical students that he has a girlfriend ... when they're obviously flirting with him ... that is adorable. He only has eyes for Khushi.

    Again, I was left feeling pretty teary eyed after reading this. Particularly when Arnav and Khushi had their moment in one anothers arms and now ... after reading what Anjali and Arnav went through earlier on in their lives.

  41. hey dear ... its been soo long .. plz update it soon will be waiting for it

  42. waiting for update dear!! plz update soon..

  43. Beautiful update...loved the teasing...arnav is so adorable...

    waiting eagerly for the next update..

  44. That was beautiful!
    these small moments are just so plain adorable...and with them...there's always some what if's at the back of the head.....
    this update is written beautifully! <3
    I loved the patient history made me smile,cry and laugh...just soooo....touchy!
    and the gown part...LOL~!!!!!
    every student wants to talk to him....:P and i love the sometimes jealous khushi ;)
    and the mention of sexy behind just makes me blush like a 10th grader!!!!!!!!
    and to know about his childhood was heartbreaking!
    that's what makes him to work so hard!!!!
    and anjali's pain..was so well described HER BABY...i think that made me cry even more....

    very well written....cant wait for the next update!

  45. Lovely update. Starting with a li'l humour interspersed with the truth. Then anjali's arrival.
    Khushi is really an angel. I love her too. Much to want her to have her happiness, arnav's happiness. Live upto her name..khushi

  46. "Why does it have to be so hard?"
    Even in life's harsh realities, Arnav and Khushi have found room for love. This kind of love, stays forever.
    Beautifully written.
    I always experience these mix of emotions from reading your stories.. It makes me complete, makes me understand things so well.

  47. Finally Khushi has managed to get that stubborn man into a hospital.... They have a long difficult and painful road ahead of them but at least they have each other... As for Anjali still dont know whether I dislike her for what shs did or was it just a mother trying to protect her child... Its very difficult to imagine being in her shoes...
    Now coming to happier things... Arnav's round bottoms... The whole scene had be blushing like an idiot...! I guess these lighter moments is what is going to help them get through all this...
    Loved it

  48. Waiting to see how this progresses ....

  49. Read last three chapters in one go... Beautiful updates. Arnav is finally back and they have realised that they cannot live without each other...
    The morning in hospital where Khusi presented his case was hilarious :) and Arnav took his revenge :)
    The glimmer of hope is there, life should be lived and not wasted in blaming and thinking about what if.....
    Anjali-Khusi convo was heartfelt as it revealed all the hardship Arnav has had to go through...

  50. Hope all is well with you .. awaiting the next few updates eagerly!!!

  51. eagerly wating for the nxt update..loved the story....

  52. WOW!! Simply Wow!

    What more should I say!! This story is so damn realistic. I was crying by the time I finished reading it and I am still crying. I need tissues...

    Sasak, hats off to you girl for penning it so beautifully. The title stands up to itself. Truly everyone's Heart's (in) a Mess after reading it. You took me to a different world altogether, a world of Dr. Khushi and an adorable Arnav, and then managed to drop me off...unkindly (don't mind). I had a feeling that it was Arnav who was the patient but I kept putting it off and then the bomb did drop off. I just hope Khushi helps Arnav recover back to health.

    I am left speechless. I hate you but I love you too. This story has such an effect on me. :)

    Thanks dear for sharing your work with new readers too. And now am a reader of your story. :D Sorry for joining you so late on this journey.

    - Tesoro.

  53. I read this all in one go! Absolutely loved it. Did not comment on each chapter since I was in a hurry to read the next chapter, I laughed and I cried my eyes out. Superb work! You need to publish your work! Period! Now my next job is to go to your index and have a reading spree. Special thanks to meera30 for recommending this beautiful story!!! Simply awesome!

  54. a heart rendingly beautiful story, written with amazing characters and storyline. Every single chapter is unique and expetional. Waiting eagerly for me.

  55. God this is amazing
    Why hell delayed reading it..
    I dont know...
    I was afraid and pained because of the dieing arnav..
    U are a brilliant writer
    Keep up the good work

  56. Simply BRILLIANT. JUST WOW. What an amazing story. but why did u stop this midway. pls complete it so i can sleep peacefully knowing he is well.that he will survive this.

  57. hope your doing well....and all is fine at your end......plz take care.......waiting for the update

  58. awesome story........hope arnav lives in the end

  59. read this entire story in one go..its awesome!! beautifully written!! arnav and khushi's love for each other is amazing!! its difficult to see ur loved ones on death bed and still keep smiling!! the tough part for khushi who has seen her worst in her childhood and never wanting to fall in love, commitment and relationship and now hopelessly in love with Arnav who is seriously ill..and arnav who wants to be loved by his girlfriend!! his love cant be selfish...

    some chapters brought tears!! full of emotions!!

    i am hoping that this wld have a happy ending..but again you are the writer and you have the story planned!!!

    Thanks to meera for recommending this beautiful story!!


  60. Will you ever stop surprising me ? Will you ? WILL YOU ? I just read it in one go , and all I'm left is Speechless .
    You made me Cry , Its more like a statement than accusation .
    Not once but thrice ! Hell I dont even cry seeing my Horrible exam results !
    and one line that made me shed tears endlessly ..'Her Guy was drying'
    Can you get more prefect ? Well I doubt that ! You are completely unpredictable when It comes to writing ... Something I'm jealous of ;)

    Will he be ok ? Is it a happy ending story ? I wont get into these question , I just want to enjoy for what may come , I'll be happy to smile or cry in the end too ..

    But I'm a lil curious ..
    So It is not Anjali who is a heart patient but it is Arnav only ?

    Aww I find your Arnav extremely cute , the way he drives the nurses mad ! Oh boy does it makes me want to be one of the nurses too ? Hell yeah !

    Khushi ...
    Her pain is so unbearable ! and you have penned it down so beautifully !
    I hope you Update soon , Pm me when you do !

    P.S My old username was 'ashley123' and now it is ...Ashley

  61. When r u going 2 update...i hav been stalking ur blog day nd night...plz hav mercy on us

  62. nice story and nice update.....
    waiting for the next four chapters....
    beautifully written.. i read the story in one go ....

  63. Please update soon. It's been such a long wait.

  64. After reading YLME I decided to stalk another ff of yours and came across this amazingly beautiful story. I read it all in one go and I fell in love! This concept is new to me, I don't think I would ever be able to read a story where Arnav is dying, but your characters are so captivating that I just had to keep clicking next. You are a brilliant writer, and get across what your characters are feeling very well! I can't wait to see how this story ends, hoping for a happy one! Great job!

  65. beautifulllllllll ..loved the convo btw khushi n anjali

  66. Superb update., what they share is just so beautiful.. Loved khushi and Anjali's conversation..