Wednesday, 17 April 2013

Chapter Fifteen Part A

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!" they screamed simultaneously.

Khushi feigned shock. She let her eyes bulge and her mouth hang comically open. Gasping, she dramatically lifted her hand to her chest and uttered...

"For me? Really? You shouldn't have!"

This had been a tradition for quite some time now. The concept was simple enough to fathom. Khushi Gupta didn't like celebrating her birthday so it was only natural that the staff made sure her party was a highly anticipated fixture on the years calendar. The day was meticulously planned from start to finish. In the morning the entire ward would gather to sing her another year older accompanied usually by some elderly patient on the piano forte. After spending sometime talking, laughing and opening presents with both patients and staff, she would be offered a smorgasbord of surgeries to choose from. The afternoon would be spent thus, learning about and exploring her favourite thing in the world...the human heart.

On the back of this adrenaline high, Shagun, Meg and Jahnvi would doll her up, ready for a night of debauchery and recklessness. Once sufficiently inebriated, the girls and Matt would haul her back home, leaving Khushi to nurse her hangover in the privacy of her own home the next day. The night out on the town was sponsored by the valiant Oilver Danes, who would voluntarily offer his services for the graveyard shift, enabling the younglings to let their hair down.

At first all the attention had made Khushi uncomfortable. Prior to her migration to Cleveland, birthday's only served as a painful reminder of a life that could only be attained in her dreams. For the most part she would just ignore the entire day but when loneliness came to giver her company at night, she would cry herself to sleep...rueing this day upon which she was born. Slowly though, it had become something to look forward to....a reason to celebrate the small blessings in her life. Never had it been said but it was quietly understood that the reason the day was so meticulously planned was so that she would never be alone. Something for which she was grateful

This was her family now.

So every year she would pretend to be surprised at all of their arrangements, play acting her way to glory. It had become a sort of joke between them all.

A very large, questionable looking cake floated toward her, alight with numerous candles. From nowhere a silly party hat was attached to her head; people blew on children's party horns and thin strings of streamers were popped into the air as they sang to her in loud and out of tune chorus. She giggled at the hilarity of the situation and blew on the little flames and just as she did every year, Khushi thanked god for the little blessings in her life. A small addendum however was made to the silent prayer, her eyes still shut....

Thank you for sending me Arnav, God. I don't know what I have done to deserve him but thank you.  

Loud thunderous applause and whistles broke out as she cut the cake.

"Time to break out the walking stick then Gupta?" Matt teased gently, giving her a side hug. Khushi in response smeared his cheek with cake, a roguish smile on her lips.

"Only today Gupta....only today." he grumbled, letting her get away with the indiscretion. Oliver interrupted them and kissed her gently on the forehead. Handing her a present he wished her a happy birthday. Khushi frowned...

"You know my rule about presents." 

"Oh come on Kiddo....let me spoil you."

Biting her lip, she contemplated opening the meticulously wrapped present.

"Khushi open it or I will." Shagun called out.

Unable to curb her curiosity any longer, she ripped the wrapping in a hurry. In it lay a hardback first edition copy of Gray's Anatomy. She wrapped her arms around her boss cum father figure. "Thank you, thank you, thank you." she whispered repeatedly.

"Stop it kiddo..." he teased. "You're ruining my reputation." Giving her a quick hug he left the others to it. "I'm going for a consult now. By the time I come back you better have chosen what surgery you want in on."

Making sure that their boss was well out of ear shot, Jahnvi pounced..."So what did hotwa give you?" she asked unable to contain her grin.

Khushi shrugged. "He's in Atlanta on business. I've barely seen him these past few weeks ...apparently work is hectic. Plus he doesn't even know it's my birthday."

"WHAT!" Meg shrieked. "How can he do anything romantic if you don't tell him it's your birthday."

"Because I don't want him to do anything of the sort. Knowing him it would be totally lame and cheeseballish." She smiled fondly. "He is a cheeseball sort of a guy."

Meg sighed, leaning her chin on her palms. "I bet he would have been totally romantic. Your hotwa is soooooo perfect!"

Shagun added..."I don't know about perfect but his ass is pretty fine..."

Khushi looked at them scandalised. Jahnvi laughed and agreed "He does have a perfect butt."

Matt looked uncomfortable. "Perfect is overrated."

Khushi, having recovered from the shameless objectification of her boyfriend, laughed and pulled Matt's cheek...."Nawww....jealous Parker?"

Matt watched the girls walk away laughing, a feeling of dread settling over him. Khushi had no idea what was coming.


Arnav's heart almost stopped as she walked out of the foyer, surrounded by her friends...laughing freely. Khushi hadn't noticed him yet and for that he was glad. It gave him time to adore her to his heart's content. The girls had dressed her to the nines today. Emerald green strappy stilletos walked a touch unsteadily as she struggled to find her stride. The long creamy columns of her legs stretched upward, disappearing under yards of black velvet, hanging off her well sculpted shoulders, clinging to her every curve and showing off the slight swell of her breast. Just as he lifted his gaze toward her face, she turned toward him, catching the swirling depths of his caramel eyes. Gently a soft smile broke across her face, so beautiful in its constitution that he found himself paralysed, helpless in the face of that incontrovertible charm.

Khushi's poor heart lost its innate sense of rhythm as she caught sight of him. Arnav stood across the street leaning against his car, his hair flying away with the breeze, arms folded across his chest...adoring her. No other word could suffice in conveying his regard of her. The palate of midnight blue and white, in which he was outfitted, acted only as an accessory to his effortless appeal. Yet over and above this was the truth that her heart screamed aloud, rejoicing in its victory..... he had come. A slight quiver of her lips gave her away. Unspoken dreams and fancies found flight as ran toward him and threw herself in his arms. Buried deep in his chest, she lay bare her vulnerability...

"You came."

Wrapping his arms around her he buried his nose into her hair and breathing deeply stated...

"I had to Gupta." Warm fingers brushed against her flush cheeks, their lingering trail generating a fiery static, brushing the few stray stands behind her ear. With a chaste kiss, Arnav looked upon her eyes... "Happy birthday my darling girl."

As he kissed her, Khushi felt her stomach tighten. Her newly found friends flapped their wings, sending her on her way to the warmth of a heaven that had become her drug of choice. Wolf whistles and lewd remarks disturbed the happy couple's reunion. Khushi pouted as he drew himself away...grinning at her crazy friends.

Cuddled into his warmth, she looked up at him concerned. Running her fingers over his eyelids, she noted... "You look pale...weak."

Kissing her nose, he shrugged it off. "Work...forget about it. Why did I have to get a call from Meg to find out that it was your birthday? Why didn't you tell me? "

"You were busy."

"I'm never busy for you Khushi." She nodded understanding that he meant business. It had become an unconscious habit of his to use her first name when he was serious about a certain matter. "I wanted to do so much for you."

"Well you know my birthday now so next year I exp...."

"Oi love birds are you coming or do you want us to book you a room?" Shagun yelled from across the road.

Arnav laughed and looked at Khushi naughtily. "What to do you reckon?"

"Let's get drunk Raizada!" Khushi declared linking her arm with his, dragging them onward and upward.



The club pulsed around them, its patrons merry in their drunken stupor. Music blared from the speakers, laser lights pulsed casting the club in its pinkish tinge as white smoked hissed onto the dance floor, snaking its way around ankles and in between legs, slowly dispersing into a thin mist. They squeezed in and around the throng of people trying to find an empty booth. Occasionally a wandering hand would grab at bare skin and the girls shuddered at the unknown touch. Sticking like glue to Arnav, Khushi let him lead the way...

"I got us a booth booked."

The girls sat down gratefully, already cursing their choice of footwear while the men went to organise drinks. Khushi drummed her fingers on the table top impatiently....

"So what are we toasting to today?" asked Meg

"Hmmm...the twenty eight year old virgin?" Shagun suggested with a devilish smirk.

Khushi who was in high spirits, sat back against the plush lounge chair and smirked a smirk of her own. "We're toasting to my last hours as a twenty eight year old virgin." Biting down on her lip she couldn't help but giggle as her cheeks flushed red.

Jahnvi's eyes almost popped out of their sockets. "You mean....?"

"Tonight's the night. I've waited long enough..." Looking over at Arnav, she caught his eye and smiled. "He's the one."

Suddenly the atmosphere changed as the girls huddled around her. "Don't push yourself into this. If you're not ready it's nothing to be ashamed about." Meg held Khushi's hand, trying to understand her motives.

"Yeah. Your age doesn't matter. It need's to be right for you Khush." Jahnvi reassured her.

Shagun simply shrugged..."If he hurts you, I'll just cut his balls off."

Meanwhile an altogether different conversation was taking place at the bar. Chaos was the appropriate term to describe the ordering process. Elbows pushed and shoved, wedging themselves in any given free space, attempting to inch closer to the bar counter. Once at the counter, it then became a contest as to who had the better developed vocal cords. Arnav waved over one of the harrowed looking bar tenders.

"I need six premium tequila shots with lime and a bottle of your finest champagne."

Acknowledging the order with a wave of the hand, the young man signalled upward to his colleague on a ladder. A bottle of the finest tequila was dropped from a distance of about two meters, free falling into the bar tenders waiting hands.

"You still haven't told her." Matt accused as they waited. Arnav looked at him tiredly. "You're getting worse Arnav . It's written all over your face. You shouldn't even be here. "

Arnav noticed Khushi staring at him from the booth, smiling contently, a soft blush on her cheeks. He smiled back. "It's my girls special day. Let me have this one night Matt. One night where I'm not constantly thinking about my own mortality." 

"It's not fair on her."

"You don't think I know that? Do you really think I'm that selfish? I tried staying away from her...I did. I just...forget it. There's no point thinking about that now. Let her have tonight."

Matt put his hand on Arnav's shoulder. "I know you love her. I'm not doubting it. You're a good guy but the longer you wait to tell her the harder it's going to get."

Arnav looked at Matt, frustrated by his own fate. "Why me?"

Matt answered simply..."Why her?"

Grabbing the tray of drinks they headed back to the girls. Plastering a smile on his face, Arnav let his troubles take a back seat for tonight. A chorus of applause broke out as the girl's caught sight of beverages. Passing around the champagne flutes, Matt then proceeded to pop the bubbly. The liquid frothed over the top of the bottle, earning an ear splitting grin from Khushi. Trying to conserve the liquid gold, Matt ran the bottle over the glass tops.

"To love and to life." Arnav proposed, looking at Khushi. She rewarded him with a quick kiss on his cheek.

"To love and to life" they all chorused. Several drinks later and the mood was significantly silly.

Khushi stood up abruptly, screaming over the noisy crowd. "Let's dance!"

Arnav and Matt grimaced. " girls go. We'll join you in a bit."

Khushi pouted. Arnav pleaded..."Go have fun with the girls."

Shagun already impatient yelled...."I'm the only married woman here and I don't get to go out often enough. Move your ass Khushi Gupta!"

Rolling their eyes at the men, they traipsed off to the dance floor, the crowd swallowing them up. Arnav watched with fascination as Khushi let loose, a likely result of the alcohol running rampant in her blood stream. The gentle sway of her hips sashayed the skirt of her dress, as she grooved to the rhythm, oblivious to anything and everything else. With her hands thrown up in the air, she let her head rock from side to side creating the most hypnotic movement with her long locks. Involuntarily Arnav found himself leaving Matt mid conversation and walking toward Khushi. Sliding in behind her, he wrapped his sinewy forearm around her waist and drew her into him. Smiling victoriously, she let her head rest back against his chest, intertwining her fingers with his and they moved with the underlying rhythm, their bodies as one. The beat of the song began to build, heralding the climax and the conjoined mass of people began to move faster and faster.

An uncomfortable tightness settled itself deep within the walls of his chest and Arnav knew something was wrong. The lights were too bright from him, his vision began to blur and the sound of the music distorted. Khushi too caught up in the dance didn't notice as he staggered away from her, pushing his way through the crowd, desperate for some fresh air. It was only the glimpse of his jacket from the corner of her eye that brought to light the fact that Arnav wasn't with her anymore. She frowned noticing his uneven gait and watched as Matt followed him out of the side door exit.

Uneasiness clawed on to her skin, biting away till she could no longer bear it. Trusting her gut instinct she followed the boys, desperately pushing her way through gyrating and sweaty bodies. So much was her desperation that she almost broke out into a run. Pushing the side exit door open, she ran out into the alley looking left and right for them. Suddenly she heard a frantic voice and turned around...

"I need an ambulance on the corner of Delenger and Harborne Street.." Matt was yelling into his mobile.

Her heart beat loudly in her ears as her brain registered the information her eyes were relaying. Arnav lay crumpled on the cold street, pale as ghost...unconscious.


DUN DUN DUN!!!! Cliffhanger I know but it's important. Thank you to all of you who left a really makes my day and helps me analyse how the story is going. Also it makes me smile and love all of you for the passion you have about my story. For those of you who asked for my it is....

Also a lot of you are calling Arnav and Anjali selfish. Don't be so quick to judge. I will hopefully shed more light on this in the future. Some of you readers have the right idea about Arnav's intentions and some of you are waaaay off. Though once again I will wait and develop this in the story a bit more. But if you want to know Arnav's point of view then re-read the last chapter where Anjali is talking to Khushi about being afraid but think of it from Arnav's perspective. That is how I had originally imagined it anyway. 

Lots of Love 



  1. oh my god.....plz save arnav.....

  2. Happy brithday to Khushi!

    and am hoping she remains strong.

  3. awesum updt....its khushis birthday...arnav couldnt stay away frm hr so came to hr to celebrate hr birthday....ooops she found out its arnav who is not well...continue sooon....

  4. What a started so ending in a pool of tears....and quick heart-beats....
    Khushi will find out in the worse way possible....from a doctor point of view....
    My heart hurts when I am thinking at her reactions....
    Please save Arnav and ..... make Khushi happy.....
    O know "Heart's a Mess" but it can be a LOVE MESS.....
    PLS PLS PLS update soon.

  5. How could you do this? I knew when I start read the chapter that something is going happen but then I thought oh come on its khushi's birthday so nothing bad will happen, but I was wrong, wasn't I? I hope Khushi can save him!


  6. wow!
    just amazing
    i was really happy at the beginning but at the end i was in tears!
    gosh.... why on khushi's birthday? itz gonna be the worst birthday for khushi ever!
    hope she'd be able 2 handle it!
    plzzzzz update sooooooooon!

  7. It is so difficult for me to read this but I can't keep myself away. I was hopeful that you will give Khushi Arnav and us one night of happiness. But that was not to be.


  9. You left us in such a big cliff hanger!!!

    I was so shocked when i found out that Arnav is the one who needs a heart!!

    i feel so bad for both of them...

    Please let him be okay...

  10. Oh god...probably Khushi's best b'day turned into worst one....poor will she take it....?
    ONE REQUEST....PLS DON'T MAKE US WAIT LONG FOR NEXT UPDATE....can't wait for it.....

  11. Oh no, here they both were actually starting to really like each other. I'm sure Khushi will be very worried about him, but I wonder how mucu of that will be overshadowed by the fact that he kept the truth from her. I don't think they're being selfish at all honestly, he wants to keep Khushi from the pain of losing him. Protecting someone pain at the cost of your own well-being and joy is pretty selfless.
    I have a feeling it's about to get pretty serious for these two, and I'm ready with tissues.
    I'm not sure how this story is going, but I swear if Arnav dies I will need a few boxes of doughnuts delivered!

    Thank you for sharing your story and I look forward to reading more.

  12. so its time.......but seriously,,,,,i was not expecting this way to let Khushi know about Arnav............its her Birthday and she got the most unexpected birthday gift..... i was stalking you at IF and also on Blog and finally got hold on to the update....THANKS FOR AN UPDATE,,,,,,,,and try to update sooner.....waiting to know waht will happen next.....
    reading the POV of Arnav was heart paining,,,,, he finally got the girl in his life but his life is going away from him.....


    1. hiya sasask,
      as you said you have already locked your "your love is everthing" blog,,,,,but i' your regular reader and i do comment on ypur i'm expecting an invitation from you.....reply me....


  13. So Khushi is gonna finally know... ! When Khushi started saying tht next year on her birthday she expects Arnav to do something my eyes welled up...
    The fact that she mentioned Arnav when she was making a wish just goes to show how much he means to her... She is going to be devastated when she finds out the truth...
    Update soon...:)

  14. Ohhhh my god please don't let anything happen to Arnav khushi would simply die if anything happen...Arnav is surely perfect...!!!!Loved the update the way you write is awesome like I have always told you...You know my heartbeat went loud the moment I read the part when Arnav starts to get sick..!!!Awesome Update like always..!!!


  15. awesome.... but please dont let anything happen to arnav. khushi will not be able to take it. both of them have a right to love

  16. Sob... Sob........Arrrrnaavvvvvjiiiii... Plzzzzz.

    I am going to to bank on what my heart tells me .. amd that is tht U are one Romatic at heart Sasak... so I am going to leave it upto you to fix this!!!! Pretty plzz...

  17. OMG!!! This was her birthday!!! HER BIRTHDAY!!!! Why do you have to be so dramatic?? OMG!! I think I AM going to have a coronary!! And yes..I am crying!!! Like I said...I think from every update here on out I will be crying! When Khushi tells Arnav that now that he knows when her birthday is, he can do something special for her only to be cut off..I couldn't help but feel like that was a sign that Arnav will not be there for her next birthday...he might not make it and that's when the water works started! Ok I wanna throw my laptop away! I'm so mad right now!! Life is unfair!!

  18. I'm so depressed right now I can't even get my thoughts together:/

  19. Oh..really ya.....what a way to stop....feel like crying....

    I hope that Arnav can be saved somehow....what are a Brillant writer.

  20. oh no! poor arnav! what a terrible way for khushi to find out about his health... i hope he makes it to her next b-day at least.

  21. What a fabulous story! you are a brilliant writer bringing out all the dormant sensitivities of your characters in all ur stories in such a subtle way,it leaves one spell bound.
    Its the first time i am commenting on any of your stories and esp this one coz me too am suffering from terminal illness and i get Arnav`s POV ttly. The only way i have found to live is not to think about it n just live each day as it comes. i have 3 lovely girls who are my strength.
    Thank u once again for this lovely story!!

  22. This was an awful way for Kushi to find out about Arnav.Matt is also in a terrible position.I hope this does not scar Kushi.This chapter was brilliantly written.The happiness I felt along with Kushi enjoying her birthday to the total opposite with Arnav letting her have her day and trying to put his troubles on the backburner.AND THEN THE CLIFFHANGER......

    This chapter made me feel immense pain.

    Thanks for this wonderful story.

  23. I can't help it anymore. I automatically start wailing everytime I read one of these chapters. :'(
    No kidding. Because Khushi has no IDEA how she stands to lose everything she holds dear and it's all just so unfair and they've both had such hard lives and now when they're on the brink of happiness, it's all going to be snatched away from them and I can't deal with this kathor duniya anymore.

  24. the part in the club was almost hypnotic and the last bit was heartbreaking sometimes life is not meant to be perfect and u just brought reality into light and am grateful for that well done man great update

  25. so sad but so beautifully written.

  26. Man! What a way for Khushi to find out about are a fantastic writer who knows just how to keep your readers hooked.

  27. Khushi is going to find out right?.........poor girl its her birthday!
    Your breaking my heart with this story
    Update soon

  28. for some reason i am remembring kal ho na hoo and just crying like how i cried when shahrukh had his attack.
    not why him or why her i would rather say why these two :(.
    dnt kill him please. paralyse him do anything else but plz dnt kill him or put him in to coma. i dnt want many romantic scenes between these two but these two together only is way to fine with me.

  29. I am screaming UNFAIR here...And I want to personally wage a war with every or any God that there might be! Oh my heart (pun intended) goes out to Arnav and the woman who is literally the heart in this story!

    Can't wait to see how things unfold

    IF: meera30

  30. omg omg poor baby!!! i can only imagine what khushi must be going through.....shit this is it...she'll know now...
    i've never thought arnav to be selfish..i always had a feeling that it's arnav who's sick so wen i read anji's part i used to keep arnav in i can completely understand him...but being a reader i can tell both sides of the story and cant help feel so bad for khushi...matt was right Y HER???

    im just loving how ure setting the pace of the story.....great work.......
    this update was beautiful..i love the hospital gang i think i've mentioned...they're too fun to read.....

    will be waiting for the next update:D


  31. OMG! I literally jumped out of bed when this thought came to me! Khushi's dialogue to Di about her heart being Arnav's forever.. OMG is one ending Khushi being the donor somehow?!?! No more sleep now I guess

  32. Loved every bit of it. Khushi's birthday surprise, the teasing, the way Arnav wishes her, the way adores her. Just plain beautiful.
    But now sitting on the edge of my chair with fingers crossed, waiting to know whats going to happen now.


  33. Lovely update dear.
    Loved it.
    Oh her sir gifted her grays anatomy.i love that book.
    Aww arnav her soo much.
    Their reunion was awesome.
    And happy birthday to khushi.
    So khushi is going to know about arnav's disease.waiting.
    Khushi favourite one is human heart.ahh mine too.
    Loved it awesome part.
    Update soon.

  34. heyyyy reallly emotional update
    soooo sad pooor khushi she doesn't know whats going to hit
    can also understand why arnav wants to keep her away from it he loves her soooo much
    cant wait for khushi to find out and to support him
    beautifully written
    update soon
    thanks for the pm

    ps: plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz make it a happy ending

    And so the tears started streaming down my face.


  36. Aww..... Kushi is getting pampered by everyone on her special day!
    And Arnav was there to celebrate it with her!It was all happy and mushy until suddenly BAM...,Arnav's health worsened!
    The ending was scary!
    This is the worst possible way for Kushi to get to know about Arnav's condition!...and to think that she was ready to take their relationship to the next level that night!....It's just heart breaking!
    He shouldn't have exerted himself so much that night!

    cupcake1234 (IF)

  37. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO....not on her birthday! i hear just broke! :(

  38. This seems to be going izzy and Danny of greys anatomy... But pls don't kill off arnav...

  39. Oh god..plz dont let this happen..plz plz plz..!

    i could not, just could not stop my tears after what Arnav told Matt at the bar..:'( plays the most cruel games with u at the most perfect of times..!! Im being selfish here, very selfish but i just dont want anything to happen to Arnav coz i actually could hear Arnav's predicament in whatever Anjali was telling Khushi in the last chapter..:(
    I know its a story but even then i would just wish for god to cut some slack for the poor couple..they deserve a shot at happiness..plz god!!

  40. S!! what is this? you took us all heights with the birthday party and especially her toast! :D but the happenings is equally important! hmm! now without him having to tell her she'll know!

    but what caught me the most was her wish or thanks to the lord before cutting the cake! I feel so bad for her now man! it was really sad to read all the above knowing the consequences now!

    but amazingly written! the emotions were intact whether happiness or sadness all so well penned down!


  41. His heart's literally a mess. This is so sad. I really like your story- it's very different. Let's hope they can get him on the donor's list. And that Khushi wont be too mad.

  42. Oh Nooooooo. On her freaking birthday! This can't be true :(

  43. oh nooo.......pls pls......don't take away arnav from khushi.......pls....its her birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....:(

  44. Hey Sasak, I love the way u write.. this is one of the best arshi ff i have read.. thank a lot.

    I very badly wanna read ur other ff YLME but cant get the access to the blog.. can u add me on PLZ...

  45. just read the whole thing all chapters in one go and then read it nice more cause I loved it soon much...very nicely written

  46. i just read all chapters in one go right before my test, can u believe it!! i just love this ff, sad as it is, the optimism within me hasn't failed!! please update soon!!!

    IF: random94

  47. This is surely one of the best ffs I've ever read on khushi and arnav. Amazingly well written!

  48. Awesome FF.. Wonderfully written... Read it all in one go:)

  49. on khushis bday :(
    she was finally letting herself go!

  50. OMG please save Arnav... Story is just getting too emotional.. Loved how you are writing the parts..

  51. She is going to know. Everything is over. Arnav is dying