Friday, 26 April 2013

Chapter Sixteen


It's strange the memories you keep. Far into the future, when she would look back upon this day, Khushi knew the first memory to come crawling out of the cobwebbed crevices of her mind would be an auditory one. The resounding echo of her heels upon the white shiny surfaces of the hospital floor would haunt her in her dying days.

Long and tortuous corridors were now what remained between her and the painful reality of her life.

Never before had her limbs felt so leaden. Blinking away tears she willed herself to keep going. One step at a time...further into the deafening silence.

Armed guards stood either side of the entrance to the private suite. With the cursory nod, they stepped aside, swiping passes on to the keypad. The green light flickered and the electronic doors slid open.

Anjali stood in the far corner, mobile pressed to her ear, trying to update Devyani Raizada on their Chote's health status. Aman sat cross legged next to his bed, typing away furiously, drafting a press release. Susie, the night nurse, trying to ignore all the humdrum, was recording vital stats into the patient chart. Men, whom Khushi was unfamiliar with, stood at the foot of the bed, blocking her view of Arnav, updating him on anticipated hits to the AR Corp. stock. A woman, with a severe bun and rectangular reading glasses was talking a mile a minute, trying to send the press sniffing elsewhere...convincing them that Arnav Singh Raizada's collapse was nothing more than a case of mismanaged sugar levels.

In that moment it became startlingly clear to Khushi that she knew very little about Arnav Singh Raziada.

The realisation... was suffocating.

Invisible in the corner of the room, her first instinct was to run.

The electronic monitor above the hospital bed began to flicker. Susie frowned...

"Your heart rate just shot up..." she mumbled to herself.

The room stilled. Arnav whispered...


All the occupants turned to look at her. Without so much as a word, papers and personal items were gathered and one by one they left the room. Khushi kept staring out the window, focussing on the city lights in the distance, unable to look at him.

The quiet was comforting.

"Look at me."

Though issued as a directive, his tone was soft...pleading. Khushi shut her eyes tight, clenching her trembling hands. He sounded frail. Swallowing the tears at the back of her throat she turned around to look at him.

Her knees gave way at the sight of him.

Arnav threw off his blankets, reaching out to help her. She held out her arm to stop him. He froze...unsure of his rights over her anymore. Gripping the railings, she slowly pulled herself upright and looked him in the eye.

And for that one moment...she lost herself.

The ache in her heart subsided, leaving way for relief to wash over her.

He was alive.

The warm, swirling depth of his caramel coffee coloured eyes begged her to close the distance between them. To run into his arms and to cry her heart out. To bare her soul to him. If only they knew just how much she ached for the same.

But the tempest brewing within her could not be silenced.

He lifted his hand out to her. "Khushi...please..."

Her lower lip trembled. A sob escaped her. "I can't..." she hoarsely confessed.

Turning her back to him, she steeled herself, willing the tears to stop.

"I can't ever see you again."


 I know it's short. 

But there is a reason. It's for an effect. I kept writing the next bit...but it seemed to detract from this moment. I wanted this moment to be isolated. Also I don't believe in making an update long unnecessarily. The effect I desired has been achieved. It was supposed to be a mini movie.

The next update will be VERY long. So you should be happy about that. Also it will be the last VERY SAD update. After that it will be better. 

Thank you so much for you all your love and support. I cannot say it enough number of times. You guys make me laugh and sometimes even a little misty eyed. Big kisses and hugs to you all. 

Love Sasak.


  1. wow!!!!!!!!!!!!1 beautifully written...

  2. OMG!!
    I literally had tears in my eyes!

    I just cant wait for the next update.

    No Khushi, you cant leave your Arnav alone. Infact I think Khushi is gonna play a vital role in saving Arnav(I want Arnav to be saved :'D)

    Comming to ur writing, I have been a silent reader all tgis while. But I cant be silent anymore, you are bloody brilliant mahn. Just too awesome. :)

  3. Oh no, Khushi didn't mean that Arnav! I love that Arnav got up to try and help Khushi, even in the midst of his sickness he still puts her first. I hope maybe Khushi understands him a little better after her initial anger.

  4. This update took me about 4 to 5 minutes to read !...... And still in that time you managed to make me cry!
    I want khushi to save arnav!
    And i know she wont be able walk away although she knows that would save her alot of heart ace!
    And i loved the part where the nurse says your heart rate just went up and then he wispers khushi! omg your just too good!
    Upate soon

  5. Why are u doing this to me??
    I cant stop crying ='(

    A. I AM PMSing
    B. this is reminding me of very bad memories.
    C. this is creating a fear and making me imagine of going thru the emotional and physical pain and fear of losing someone.
    D. I have lost someone!! this is reminding me and making me cry thruout the day.
    E. it has such a prolonged effect over my life.
    F. THIS WAS AMAZING. BEAUTIFUL and a heartwrenching update
    G. U better update soon!!
    H. I feel like i am in place of khushi.
    I. I totally understand her.
    J. Felt sooo sad and helpless to feel how khushi was feeling totally out of place.


  6. wonderful!

    bliss to read! I mean even though from a ArShian point of view it's sad! but as a reader and a longer of good writing this was too good S!! seriously!

    the way you took us through it all was superb every emotion felt!

    that fight between the heart and mind! hmm nice man!

    Keep up the superb work!


  7. Oh. No...why is khushi going away from him...of all the things...I can't believe she is making his fears of loosing her true...thought she was far more stronger than this .... I thought she would be his strength....

  8. Amazing story........... loved the way u portrayed both arnav & khushi 's feelings.tooooooooooooooo emotional.

  9. Why is talking about seeing each other anymore? She should help him! Know its hard for her but she cant just leave, not now!


  10. My online sister choked up when she read your tale. And Sasak, Ikid you not, that is the biggest compliment I can give you :) She is VERY picky about what she reads and doesn't think much of my writing but you are pulling her right in :)

    AS for me,did I mention I was a fan?


  11. thanx for an update and yes, its short but i do get your point..... he know their will time when this would happen but how to cope up with it,,,is the question which was unanswered and now i guess it time to find it.......
    two poor soul fell in love with certain circumtances,, which can't be resolved.....hope above hope that everything gets alright......
    beautifully written and loved it.......waiting for next update eagerly... impaitent, yeh i know....


  12. of course u already had the desired affect. we've been sad :(

  13. I have always been a stickler for Happy Endings... but here it seems you are gonna make us cry some more... may be even more than that.... but atleast I can hope that u'll bring some sunshine in their lives..... I know Life is not all roses and fairies but still... Hope is all we have.... I found ur story today and read it all in one go... n now I kant stop the hurt I am feeling... wat to do???

  14. Aww! Poor Khushi! She is trying to protect her heart......but it's too late.

  15. Lovely WOW YAR!!!
    u definitely created an emotional and heartwrenching atmosphere in this update.
    Amazing and beautifully written.
    I loved the part where involuntary arnav's heart beat raised sensing khushi.
    And their sadness and pain in the last part brought tears in my eyes.
    Lovely lovely and lovely.
    Update soon.
    I m hina69 from IF.

  16. She can't help not seeing him.....Arnav already has her heart I guess.....ohh can't wait to see what happens next...

  17. Yes the update was very short. But has of the effect u must have esired. I'm heart broken. I feel as if its me standing in er she's. it's my lover who's in that bed..Dieing

  18. arnav get well soon

  19. heart goes out to them......what a build up, it definitely made a huge effect. So eager for the next chapter.....

    Thx for taking the time for updating Sasak.....

  20. this is heart wrenching!!
    waiting for the next update!!

  21. NAHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!! *sniff* This is heart wrenching! I feel so bad for Arnav and Khushi. This is so painful! I know Khushi won't leave Arnav because she loves him too much to let him go! Ok I'm crying!!

  22. that was soooooooo heart wrenching!
    i know khushi will be with arnav!
    waiting for the next update!

  23. Oh painfully beautiful! And the music added to it, it was a heart wrenching Wow experience.
    I know it's hard for both of them to not see each other. I hope they will face this together, they just have to! They are so connected, he just knew the reason of his fast heart beats! Please, please, please update soon, ab raha nahi jata.


    PS: It's a relief to comnment here but as you told, posting this on IF too!

  24. so it is arnav then! it ws heartwrenching.... her feelings felt so touchhable...! and the moment khushi decides to run his heart races,loved it!god... uve rendered me speechless...!
    my IF name is happypeace

  25. This was just painful....There is no other way to describe it.... and the music though perfect just made me cry even more...
    update soon please

  26. a very painful and heart wrenching updt....had tears in my eyes...continue sooon.....

  27. was truly painful ..but why such short update and end why she said that !! too many Q .. plz post the next one soon

  28. Poignant update!
    It was short but effective, I had a lump in my throat after reading this...
    It's just painful to see them both like this.


  29. Im writing this some hrs after reading chapter 15B n 16, coz i was not in a position to do anything immediately after i read these two chapters..this is not happening to them please..:(
    I feel like a masochist write now, knowing how much reading this is making me feel sad n feel the pain, but i just cant give up reading this..!

    I just wanted to hug Khushi there in the waiting room first. I cant tell u what i felt when i read about Arnav lying on the bed..he actually sort of got out of bed to help her..aahhhh...i love him, i just do..
    Im waiting to know why khushi did what she did..

  30. this better not be happening - the last line i mean! but anyway i have a feeling where u may be taking it. just waiting for u to unveil the next few chapters!!!

    IF: random94

  31. I came across ur ff 2 days back and i'm totally addicted to it!!!!
    i have sent u a buddy request on IF
    pls accept it
    and pls update:-)

  32. Noooooooo! omg thats so heart breaking! poor khushi! she is so broken! and arnav too!but i am glad arnav made it! i am not sure if he can make it up to khushi for what he hid! its kinnda sad how khushi got happiness for little sec and got snatched away! especially if arnav after knowing everything gave it to her just to be snatched away!

  33. tough but beautifully written chapter.

  34. I read this in literally one night! Stayed up and ignored my poor husband! Please update soon! I also love love love love your YLME I hope you dont close it and keep it open. Trust all your readers we love you, but sometimes we forget to express our love!

  35. I absolutely love this fic. Love, love, love this fic so much!

  36. I am speechless...

    This story is too amazing..

    I just loved it. I read it one go.

    And I know that I would be hampering your creativity and after all its your story to tell, but Arnav can't die.

    He can't die when he is surrounded by 3 amazing cardiologists. No. He just can't. And neither can Khushi.

    You've made me smile, laugh, cry everything through this one story.

    I am not requesting you to change the story line.. or you know...trying to ..act as a wet blanket but.. this story deserves a happy ending.

    Not because its going to be too painful..but only for the sole purpose of Khushi finally finding her happiness.

    She never really got anyone in her life to love and someone who loved her right as much.. doesn't she deserve once chance at happiness?

    I know she'll have to struggle to find it.. but I just hope that she does. I fervently hope that she does.

    I don't know what you mean by giving this story an alternative happy ending.....and for some reason this alternative way doesn't sound like a really happy ending.... but I just know that this story is an amazing piece of work and everyone in the story deserve a happy ending.

    Not a sad-happy ending..but a happy-happy ending.

    Am I sounding too desperate for you to give it a happy ending?That's because I cried in the last two updates. Not complaining..just saying that this story is too amazing to have a sad ending.

    It can't end in Kal Ho Na Ho (movie) style. Just saying. Okay. I think I blabbered enough already.

    And its just what I feel.

  37. And did I mention again how brilliant your fic is?

    Its amazing.

  38. Just finished reading the last 8 chapters
    I just knew it was Arnav that had heart problems
    Damn he is dying, please dont make this like Kal Ho Na Ho

    Why is Khushi turning away from him? he needs her support now
    They love each other, you do not abandon your loved ones ever!!!!!!

  39. Hey why i feel that she is planning to donate her heart to him so shee said those words.....coz her love is not weak which will turn around like this.....

  40. Love your style of writing .... was directed to your blog recently ... love the story really gripping... read all 16 parts in one day ...can't wait for the next few parts.

  41. Short but heartbreaking...the emotions are to overhelming for Khushi....she is backing off....she is heart is crying for her.
    Update next part soon.

  42. I have no words. Such love. Such heartbreak. I just loved the update.


  43. it was so emotional part how helpless he was in her love
    he was so naughty at the same time khushi was so embarrassed at his statement davil he was
    it was awesome one
    continue soon

  44. You have not updated in a while -- hope all is well with you?

  45. Beautiful update dear... The heart beat scene was just out if this world..,

  46. Beautifully written, she have to see him, I love the way you have written this story.please don't let him die