Thursday, 4 April 2013

Heart's A Mess Chapter Nine Part Two

"Family isn't just about whose blood runs through your veins. It's about who never left your side, 

stood up for you and believed in you."

- Adrien Body


"Are you singing Gupta?"

Khushi looked up from her paperwork unable to wipe the grin off her face. "What's it to you Parker?"

"Nothing. Except your tone deaf and my ears are dying."

"Leave her alone Matt! Can't you see she's in lurveeeeee" Jahnvi teased.

Shagun and Meg laughed as Khushi threw her pen at Jahnvi's head.

Matt grinned. "That's right. I heard lover boy waited all night for you in the lounge."

"Oh yeah, Mr Dreamboat even brought her flowers." Meg jibed. Shagun rolled her eyes as she saw Matt stiffen, jealous of Meg's opinions about another guy.

Khushi leaned back in her chair with a silly little smile on her face as she remembered the way all his features had softened as he slept. Her heart did a little flutter.

Meg, Shagun, Matt and Jahnvi stared at Khushi as she became lost in her own little world. Clearing his throat Matt tired to garner her attention. Looking up, Khushi instantly coloured realising what she had done. Reverting back to auto pilot she scowled...

"None of us get paid to sit around. Go! Shoo! Save lives."

The four looked at one another knowingly and snickered. "Aye aye Dr. Gupta."

As everyone got back to their respective jobs, Khushi found it incredibly difficult to concentrate on the discharge papers as her mind wandered back to the evening before. Flashes of those memories ignited a dull hum under the surface of her skin, the energy making her restless. There was something dangerous about the way he looked at her. Almost addictive.


"I grew up in a tough neighbourhood." she softly confessed, continuing to stroke his cheek. Arnav watched as her eyes took on a distant quality, his heart beating painfully fast as he reacted to her touch. "I lost my parents when I was young and there was no one to look out for me. As I started growing up I got unwanted attention." Her voice was no louder than a whisper. "I've always been petite so knowing how to protect myself became a priority. Anyway I'm so used to living alone that when you touched me I reacted on instinct. I didn't mean to..."

Arnav put a finger over her lips, silencing her with his eyes. There was no need for her to apologise. 

He pulled her down so that she sat across his lap. The intimacy of the situation brought about a rush of blood to the head. The room was silent save the soft lilt of the music from the ipod dock. She closed her eyes and listened to the harmony of their heartbeats and the crescendo and decrescendo of their breath. Slowly he ran his hand up and down her back trying to provide comfort, guiding her head to his shoulder. Her body relaxed into him, moulding itself to his form. Sitting in the cradle of his arms, she let herself go, his touch cathartic. A little while later her face began to feel moist.

Khushi realised.... she was crying. 

The longing of a lifetime broke at its seams. Clutching his collar she began to sob softly. Arnav stiffened unsure of what had brought this on. Whispering softly in her ear, he held on to her tightly, trying to ease her pain. Khushi cried for all her lost dreams and shattered illusions. Khushi cried at the hand life had dealt her. Khushi cried for the love she had never known. After a while she sat up. Arnav wiped her eyes. Cupping her cheek, he ran his thumb over the plump mound and asked with his eyes earnest...

"What's wrong?"

Khushi averted her gaze, embarrassed by her behaviour. "I..." her voice cracked. She tried again. "I've never been held that way by anyone."

Arnav felt as though someone had plunged a knife into his chest and ripped out his heart. Smiling, he kissed her cheek softly and tucked loose wisps of hair behind her ears. His fingers skimmed the soft flesh of her sensitive lobe and he whispered.

"Better get used to it then Gupta."

Khushi looked at him with wide eyes, taken aback by his response.

"I'm serious. I can't have you ruining my shirt every time."

She looked down to the wet patch near his right shoulder region. Punching him lightly, she accused..."You're a bastard."

Arnav grinned. "And she's back."

Khushi rolled her eyes and tried to get up. Grabbing her wrist he pulled her back down. "Don't feel embarrassed about what just happened. I'm glad that it did...that you shared that with me."

Khushi gulped uncomfortably and looked everywhere other than at him. Putting his finger under her chin he made her look at him. "I'm serious Khushi." Holding on to her hands he steeled himself. "I lost my parents when I was very young too." Khushi looked at him in shock. "I hated them for it. Never forgave them. But I was lucky that I had a sister and nani. had no one. I can't imagine..." Arnav shook his head. "What I am trying to say is that you're not alone. Not anymore. Not if I have something to say about it. Ok Gupta?"

Khushi nodded confused by all that she had heard. Arnav watched as she withdrew from him reverting back into the hard casing of the shell she had spent so long building. Standing up she brushed herself off and made herself busy putting the chocolate batter for the muffins in the oven. Arnav waited to see if she would acknowledge him. She didn't. Instead she was intent on pretending as if nothing had ever happened. Accepting the fact that it would take her time to open up to him, he decided it was best if he left. 

"I should probably go...I never meant to stay so long anyway. Thanks for breakfast."

Khushi stood in the far corner of the kitchen looking at the floor and fidgeting with her top. "You don't have to thank me. You were the one who made it."

Arnav rubbed the back of his head. "Yeah...well..." he trailed off awkwardly. Picking up his jacket and keys he walked toward the front door. "See you soon Gupta?"

She nodded holding the door open for him. Standing in the hallway, half way out the door, he hesitated. Khushi looked up into his eyes confused. It was almost as if he were waiting for something. Holding her gaze he searched her eyes. A second later he shook his head, dissipating the fragility of the moment and walked to his car without so much as a second glance. 

Khushi closed the door disappointed. More so in herself than in him. Leaning her back against the door she let her eyes flutter shut and heard the ghost of his voice whispering in her ear. Better get used to it Gupta. How could she possibly explain to him that this was precisely what she was afraid of. Life had taught her not to depend on anyone. Not to 'get used' to anyone. What if it didn't work out between them? What if she depended on him and then he left her. Khushi didn't think she had it in her to recover from recover from him. 

The door bell rang and her eyes snapped open. Turning around she opened the door. Arnav stood on the steps looking a little out of breath.

"Umm....I forgot something."

"Oh...sure." Khushi stepped aside to let him in. Looking toward the living area...."What did you leave behind.

Realising that she hadn't got an answer, she turned her gaze back to Arnav only to see him staring at her intently as if trying to decide something. 


"Screw it!" Arnav cut her off, pulling her forward on to his chest and bending down to kiss her. Khushi squealed in surprise, the noise cut off as claimed her, unrelenting in his assault. At first the shock of it all made her fall limp in his arms. With her neck supported by his hand she let him take control, enjoying the feel of him against her. His touch was feather light at first, teasing her, dropping soft kisses on her eyelids, her cheeks, her nose, her earlobes, her jaw, down the column of her neck and finally back to her lips. Her face was now flush and her breathing heavy. Khushi was lost in the cocoon of warmth floating on the natural high, curling her toes and arching her back. Surely this much pleasure could not be real?

Slowly, Arnav began to encourage her to take part in the dance, coaxing her to kiss him back. Timidly she nibbled on his upper lips, her hand splayed against his chest. The innocent gesture liberated a carnal growl from deep inside his chest, reverberating against her palm. Khushi gasped and without a moments notice Arnav darted his tongue out to consume her fully. Gripping his upper arm, Khushi felt his biceps flex under her touch. The compounding sensations were all too much. A soft whimper escaped her, and he squeezed her closer into him. 

Just as quickly as he had initiated the kiss, he ended it, pushing her away. Breathing heavily he gasped... "Can't... breathe...damn... nose."

"Whaaa..." Khushi mumbled still slightly dizzy.

 Registering the plaster on his nose, she began to giggle hysterically holding onto her stomach. "It's not funny!" he growled which just made her laugh more. 

Standing up he yanked her forward brusquely, his arm around her waist. "That shut you up didn't it?

Lightly biting her cheek he complained... "Damn you Gupta. It's all your fault. If you hadn't broken my nose I could have kept kissing you."

Shyly she looked down and pushed him away. He stumbled back a little. Walking backward out of her door he looked her in the eye...

"I will see you soon Khushi."

Swinging his car key's around his finger he turned around and left.

Had it not been for the support of the door her knees would have given way. Khushi. No one had ever said her name that way. As if it were a tender caress. She blushed and smiled.

Screw it indeed!


"Can I please have my resident back?"

Khushi vaguely registered the hand waving in front of her. Her elbow slipped of the table and she momentarily lost her balance. Dr. Danes rolled his eyes.

"Dr. Gupta stop day dreaming about your boyfriend and come with me. I'm doing a ward round, bring all the patient files."

Khushi flushed embarrassed by her behaviour and cursed Arnav Singh Raizada under her breath. The interns were off doing their exams and she was left doing the grunt work. Stacking file after file in her hand she waddled a bit like a duck, trying not to drop anything. Still she wouldn't be Khushi Kumari Gupta is she didn't fall flat on her face once in a while. Cursing her bad luck and rubbing her sore back she began to collate all the files off the floor.

"Ummm....excuse me?" a sweet female voice interrupted her.

She looked up from the floor to see a woman in her mid thirties wearing a saree catching Khushi slightly off guard. She was beautiful. There was no two ways about it. Her hair was done up in a high pony tail and she wore a black chiffon saree with a dull gold blouse. The woman was married, the black and gold beads of her mangalsutra peeping out from behind her palla. Khushi suddenly felt very daggy in her scrubs. Standing up with the files in hand she replied...

"Can I help you?"

"Yes. I was wondering if you could point me in the direction of Dr. Parker's office?"

Khushi laughed.

"Did I say something wrong?"

"Oh no no! It's just that the word office around here is funny. I don't know about is office but I could point you toward his cubicle."

The woman's concerned face fell away and she smiled. "Please... I would be grateful."

Khushi looked over her shoulder, trying to balance the overflowing files. "Down this corridor, third door to your left." Just at that moment Matt stuck his head out the door. "Oh look there he is now."

The woman politely thanked her and walked away with the poise and grace Khushi had dreamed of her entire life. She did, however, notice a slight limp in the woman's gait. Khushi observed her curiously for a second and then made her way to ward rounds. Her journey was a short one as she stopped dead in her tracks hearing Matt's voice boom down the hall.

"Anjali! Come on in....I was waiting for you."


I'M BACK! GO ME! Two updates in two days. I should get an award. Anyhoo I promise a more in depth Author note after YLME update.

Please though know that when you guys comment it does make my day!

Love Sasak


  1. oh, boy!

    Anjali is here. waiting for it to unfold

  2. and sasak is back and how with a bang definetly u now have mafe me fall in love with covert too ham covert and ylme also os man ur work is gettin too good to handle every moment in the story seems pivitol to the story line thats where ur magic lies loved especially the humour in this one i mean a broken nose seriously that was really a nice one next is ylme cant wait for it

  3. Beautiful, hilarious and nice update! So Anjali is here?


  4. and your back yippeee

    aww loved their moment

    Anjali finally in the picture

    Arnav Singh Raizada going around with a broken nose haha epic

    please continue reaaaaly soon

  5. Yay finally you're back
    They kissed
    Lol arnav walking around with a broken nose
    Anjali in the picture now

  6. Anjali is going to love Khushi and I love arnav and his method of saying goodbye! This story is adorable and I cant wait to read more


  8. This long axaited update had everything. Love, romance, humour everything was there. Loved the way Khushi shed her hard exteriur and opened up to Arnav. Their kiss was of course the highlight of the update. Poor Arnav, couldn't even kiss properly because she broke his nose.
    Now she has met Anjali. Hope you will update thenext part soon.

  9. ooooh!! that was fab!! :)

    Khushi is dreamland!! .. ohh i so wish she gets the warmth she was deprived of!

    aha!! so we have Anjali now! wonder why?!

    thanks for the update and the PM!:)


  10. ur stories are really really beautiful n u have a unique form of writing!!! :) :)

  11. Amazing chapter as always!......loved arnav and khushi scenes soooo cute!
    Update soon!

  12. Aaaahh !! Big hug for u my jaan for updating this !!

    I love Raizada and Gupta in this story , he is so charming with that chivalry quotient intact!
    Khushi needs him so badly in her life it is not funny ... please khushi you have taken the step in the right direction do no shut him out !
    The kiss was lovely !!
    Now whats with Anjali ???

  13. indeed good to have you back ... live kickin' and screamin'

  14. Khushi knows anjali?? She must have heard about her.. Wow!! Poor arnav... Hid broken nose is definitely a hinderance ;)

  15. Gr8 one.....finally their relation progressing...
    Oh...Anjali in khushis hospital ..will she recognise her name...
    Waiting for next update

  16. super duper update...........Khushi opening herself a bit
    i loved the SCREW IT :D
    whats Anjali's role in all this.............looking forward for more


  17. you have no idea how happy I was when I saw ur PM... I was grinning like I fool staring at the laptop...:)
    anyways loveddddd the update... Arnav was unbelievably adorable... the way he comforted her was really sweet... n then he came back to kiss her...! I was so disappointed initially when he left without kissing her...
    Finally Khushi is going to meet Anjali... Cant wait...:)
    hope you are feeling better!

  18. You are as cute as Arnav with his one liners and you with your amazing updates, in your own way you both make me hold my breath and wait for more. Loved the update and was disappointed at Arnavs' lack of romance and then he came back with a bang...... Khushi is hesitant which is understandable but I think the kiss sealed it for her. Finally she will get to meet Anjali.


    srat IF username .

  19. red ur whole ff today. its amazing. its superb

  20. beautiful, cute, lovely, awesome, fantastic........

  21. It is inevitable! The sweetness and tge warmth in ur writing! I luved the way he kissed her! Boy all this is getting me distracted! And it's not right right now! Lol I luv ur work and you as well! U shud pat urself on your back! A work well done! As always!

  22. Atlast u r back...the update was awesome like usual the kissing convo was tooo goood...!!♡♥♡♥♡♥♡♥

  23. Aww...he came back just to kiss her. Sweet! :D But the best moment in the chapter was when Arnav consoled Khushi and she confessed that she had never been held that way. Broke my heart a little.

    Broken nose....I should feel bad but here I sit, laughing about it! :-P

    Anjali and Khushi meet, next? I hope so.

    Keep up the good work!

  24. Loved this update..<3 IT was beautiful, sweet and had warmth in it...
    The way he held Khushi in embrace made a beautiful picture...:)
    I was like awwww at first he was hesitant and tried to find what he wanted to see to initiate the kiss but couldn't find anything.. poor fellow.. but he came back and kissed her

    It was lovely....

    Do update soon...:)


  25. Great update!
    Poor arnav couldnt kiss the girl lol!!!:P
    So khushi has finally met anjali......hmmm.....
    And i loved how khushi opened up to arnav well a lil for starters.....
    Loved it!

  26. Cute update sasak
    I've left a comment on IF too.

  27. OMG!! I SO KNEW that he would come back to kiss her! I was enjoying it too until Arnav started breathing heavily and I realized that he had a broken nose! *pouts* Dhat tariki!!! I LOVED how Khushi broke down in his arms. Sure she acts all tough and all! But she isn't really tough all the time. She shouldn't be tough all the time. She's allowed to break down and cry sometimes!....and I'm glad she decided to have that mini breakdown in Arnav's arms! And the whole Arnav teasing her about his shirt... *snorts* Oh how I love this version of Arnav and Khushi..So..Can I assume that Khushi will do a bit of digging and poke her nose into this Anjali business?? :P :P I'll have you know I was stalking this story since January for an update! And here it is! :P :P Great job! :)

  28. okay part 10 was awesome! love how arnav is all over khushi and with good humor too.

  29. your story amazing work...please update soooooooooooooon

  30. he came back to kiss her now thts cool.
    looking forward to the anjali illness mystery.

  31. Ok I am super late and sorry for that. But. Eeeeep!!! HAM finally! :D I just lurrvved every bit of the update. Khushi is sooo cute and Arnav is equally charming.


  32. oh wow chap nine was just awesome.... "screw it!" loved it to the core.... :D
    oh Anjali is here... eager to knw wat will happen next... off to the next chapter

  33. Woohoo they kissed!!! Lovely update dear:-)

  34. Screw it indeed. Just kiss away. Met Anjali, I have a doubt. Is Arnav sick?
    No , he is not right.

  35. The romance is amazing. Just love their togetherness. Angeli at the hospital!!